I am finding that the times when I have the most difficulty controlling my emotions are when I am feeling very hurt. To be able to admit to being hurt is a very large dino jump for me so this is very good. My response to the hurt is one that I am going to have to be very sure to stay diligent about. Going into situations that I am unsure about, I have enough confidence in myself that I will be able to say no when the time comes, but I also want some form of control over what I allow.
As said in Duplicity the male lead says "get over it" and the female lead replies "well guess what, I am already there."
I would like to believe that I am able to say those words but unfortunately, as I first began working on being a more understanding person, I seem to have forgotten to stick up for myself. I have become a weaker person in some ways but a much stronger person in many more.
This has not been oh so very easy but I have faith that I will be able to become more of a balanced person. Able to do right for others while also doing right for myself. Above all, have the ability and will to choose to be right to myself, even if I do not like it at the time. I must remember that it is the long run that counts not the sprint.
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